Nancy sent me this email following her devotion yesterday. I thought it was really important and asked for her permission to share it with you all. She agreed. So, if you haven't read her devotion of March 12, 2008 "John 15:12-13" scroll down to read that first.
David,
I've been thinking a lot about what I wrote for my devotion this morning and I think I've come to an understanding of what God wants me to do with this situation.
I know I can't separate my emotions from others and consequently I need to realize just how much I can help these people and to realize that my idea of 'reaching out' and God's probably are 100% not the same.
But I think he knows my limitations and will put others into their lives (as well as me) to help. I think I need to challenge myself in reaching out, but do it in stages. Not jumping in and ending up like where I am now, a confused mess.
I think I need to start with prayer for the both of them and go from there. I also pray starting with prayer will fulfill God's command for me to reach out and my desire to reach out. I know God understands my heart and will still love me and not leave me and I pray too that this relieves the pressure I've been struggling with for the past week and I can get above the line of where I am.
Like I said to Donna, I'm glad I'm not a counselor, I'd be no good at it. And I'm glad I'm not God as I'm no good at that either.
Nancy
