Isaiah 50:10 For anyone out there who doesn't know where you're going, anyone groping in the dark, Here's what: trust in God. Lean on your God! (The Message)
When we are sick, we need to trust people to help us. We look to our doctors for help, look to our friends, look to our families, we often everywhere else before God. Yes, those people are important and yes, we need them in our lives everyday, but before trusting people, we must first trust God.
In my sickness, I have found that trusting people is not always a smart move. They can act like they care, but in reality, they don't and they will just tell you things so to get you through something.
For the past year, I had what I thought was a good doctor. He told me last summer, "I won't give up on you, you are a challenge and we will continue until something works." And I believed him, I trusted him and I took him at his word. Last week he gave up on me. With just a few words from him, any hope I had went and so now I'm on my own, again, doctor wise.
Thankfully, not everyone is like that. I have a couple of close friends with whom I can say anything, anytime to. They will listen and not judge me and have been with me since the beginning. They continually pray for me, they would come to my side right now, if I needed them, and I trust them with everything I have. I often wonder why I haven't lost my trust in them, but I firmly believe it's because they are gifts God sent to me.
I am embarrassed most of the time because of my emotions and thinking. My emotions tell me to drop out of things, they tell me to stop participating, they tell me to run, they tell me a lot of things. And like the Isaiah verse, I don't know where I'm going or when or how or if.
But God's Word encourages me to keep going and I know I have to stay focused on him and never stop trusting him. That's where my special friends, my angels from God, come in. They help me to stay focused and encourage me not to stop trusting God and they don't care that I sometimes lose sight of that and they continue to be here for me and for that I thank God with all my heart.
Nancy
